Psalm 91:14-16 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.” NIV
Yes I will say straight up that I took the title of the blog from Amy Grant’s new song, Better Than A Hallelujah. There is a line in her song that talks about “a soldier’s plea not to let him die”. It has been a while since I spent an evening worrying about my son in Afghanistan. My Abba has kept my heart at peace and my days filled so that I had little time to worry. Yet sometimes I hear a song or see video that reminds me of the soldiers that are serving in war far away from home. I get a little anxious when I see that war time offenses are going to start or that units are changing forward operating bases. Having spent my life as a millitary spouse I tend to know what is being said between the lines.
It is my son’s desire to do what he does. I do not ever ask God to change my son’s mind. I know that He will watch over my son and whatever happens will be His will. Yet, as a mother, there are times when it is difficult to just “smile and wave”. I want to fly to Afghanistan and bring my son home. (No dear, I would never do that. Just saying that I want to) This time I spend as the mother of a soldier gives me time to reflect on just how my Abba feels sometimes as He watches over us.
I am sure that there are times that He wants to reach down and pluck us out of our situations. Times when, with the snap of His fingers, He could change the outcome, change the choices. But what would we learn from that? If He made all of our choices for us, kept us from any danger, stopped us from tripping and falling, helped us out of everything that we wallowed in, how would we ever grow? How would we become the person He wants us to be? Life would be pretty dull if everything went perfectly and there was never a single moment of emotion. I am reminded of that movie “The Truman Show”. In it, the character is living a perfect life. Nothing ever goes wrong. Life is just one happy commercial after another. He knows that something is wrong but he can’t quite put his finger on it. Yet you, as the viewer, know that it is because he knows no conflict, no sadness, no trials. How can you ever be truly happy if you have never known sadness? In the end, he chooses to go out and find out what he has been missing. He chooses to not choose the perfect life.
I miss my son but I honor his choice to put his life on the line for our freedom. I do not fear for his life. For I know that his life belongs to the Lord. I know that no matter what happens, it is what the Lord desires and I am willing to accept His will. As a mom, I pray that my son will come home, along with all his brothers and sisters in the military. I pray that they will conquer the evil that strives to erase our Christian beliefs. I know that our prayers keep them lifted up. I ask that each of you add your prayers to mine as another battle begins in the next few days. Keep them safe and help them remember that they will win only if they put their faith in The One who controls all battles. Bless them Father and bring them home safe to their families.