Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1 ESV
Goodbye 2017. I am so ready to be past you. So much change. So much heartache. So many things I could have done without. Yet, strangely I will miss you in some profound, enlightened way. For within your days, weeks, months and hours, I found strength, courage, and a tenacity I thought long gone. I stand at the end of the year battered but not broken, weary but not without hope.
My life verse is John 14:27. “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” (ESV) As I sat, hour after hour, moment after moment, feeling fear and trouble, I kept repeating the words of that verse over and over. Admittedly I failed many times to remember that only in Him would I find peace. I would find myself falling deeper and deeper into the darkness of depression. But just as the light would reduce to just a pinpoint in the distance, I would feel His hand in mine, feel Him pulling me up and into His arms. When He was all I could see, I stopped seeing all the things that were causing me fear and pain.
This night, as I sit wondering what the new year will bring, I reach for the things I know to be true. That He loves me. That He is all I need. That all that happened was because it was part of His plan.
He did not cause the pain. He helped me out of it.
He did not cause the hurt. He comforted me through it.
He did not cause the sorrow. He cried with me and held my tears in His hands.
Tomorrow is a new day. A new year. A new chance. Yet He will not be new. Hebrews 13:8 reminds me He is “the same yesterday, today and forever.” My days might not be easy. My nights might be filled with tears. But my tomorrow is secure in Him.
I keep saying that I lost my mother this year. But in truth I did not lose her. For she is safe in the arms of Jesus, awaiting the day that we will see each other again.
I have wept for the friends I left behind when we moved. The people who became like family, loving me with a fierceness that moved mountains. But in truth they are still my friends. I did not lose them. Because we are in the family of Christ, we will be together again one day.
I sat in front of an empty screen, trying to write the words that used to flow so easily in years past. I cried out to God to please let me write again. Yet my mind was blank and filled with frustration. But in truth He had not stopped me from writing. He had moved me into another season, a season of speaking and teaching.
Hello 2018. I welcome you and all the new things that you will bring. For Jesus will be right beside me, showing me the way, leading me along the path that leads towards a richer, fuller life. Hello 2018. Let’s get moving!
©2017MichelleWelch, team member of Breath of Life Women’s Ministries